Below are the 4 most recent journal entries recorded in sirhas5dollars' LiveJournal:

Tuesday, May 17th, 2005
9:02 am	I have been hiding for the most part. No job a killer cold that has made my whole throat swell up haven't eaten in like 3 days. Have gone back on Zoloft no more drug nights for me. Then there is the girl I am trying to give her the space she needs just letting her know we are here for here when she comes out. I don't know if she wants to come out! I don't understand it but I am trying. Having never been through this type of deep depression I want to grab her shake her up tell her look at what you have you have what you told me you have always wanted. I feel like I have let her down letting her get this way I am suppose to protect I know what I think is best for her and the best way to deal with it. If only I knew the full story and was let into help. I suppose all I can do for now is sit patiently and wait letting herr know i am here night or day for her waiting for a call. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 11th, 2005
9:35 am	weekend The girl has now gone back to Melbourne not a long break this time will see her again in two weeks. Cant wait but it will be a huge weekend on the pills Hellfire and Inquisition can feel the come down now. the party was a success i think. We used a full tank of Nitrous about 1500 balloons. got to play with both the girls. I feel on sunday and a bit on Monday that Jen was drifting a little bit away she says it was the come down I don't know suppose it is just my insecurities coming through Penny says to control it but its easier said then done we have searched for her for so long don't want to lose it now. I spoked to her about coming back on the june long weekend but she has a 21st to go to will come up the week before and after so will be here for Hellfire again (cool get to show her off once more ). I want to put a picture up here but don't know how to Jen or netty help! Current Mood: melancholy (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 26th, 2005
7:24 pm	Picture Hey i have a self portrait now and i had to post so it is seen. One of my girls has finally decided to help rather then ridicule. (10 Comments |Comment on this)
2:56 pm	First entry Well the girls are hanging shit on me cause i don't know how to use this thing and i have the other one here hassling me about spelling.I cant get the picture i want up either fuck i love women. (Comment on this)